long day

i went to see my obgyn dr. seems like i'm not pregnant at all. i've already known about it when i test myself neg. but what really upset me down is when she told me that i didn't listened to her to lose my weight. i'm not reduced it but i'm over it! yea..i know that's my fault. this things gives me lessons. i must reduce my body weight if i want to get pregnant. i must have a healthy body to have a baby. god, please give me strength to do this...i think i want to make this success. i can do this!!